醒觉

我的生命不再为你而精彩、
我的时间不再为你而停留、
我的眼泪不再为你而浪费、
我的记忆也不再为你而丰富了。

选择权不会再跟随你、
你的不理不睬已让我放弃了、
或许你曾努力过、但不够、
因为连你自己也感受不到你自己的努力。

原来机会给得太多会把你宠坏、
原来机会给得太多会把我伤害、
我继续选择沉默、
当初的沉默是为了期待、
现在的沉默是为了…

Wait

I am used to waiting for people. True, everybody sure has the chance to wait for something, somebody at somewhere. But I think, most recently, my patience has reached its peak. I just don't feel like 'waiting' anymore.

Ever since I entered another stage of life, I noticed that I've been 'waiting' even more. Slowly, from waiting to anticipating. At most time, both are fruitless. And sometimes, I just hate to wait because due to the 'waiting' moment, I somehow caused myself into trouble or miss up something else.

It would be fine if someone or something I wait for worth it and appreciate it. But the truth, at most time, I don't see these people regretted or felt sorry for keeping another person waiting so long.

I mean, what makes one person thinks that his/her time is more valuable than the person who spends up to hours just to wait for him/her?

With that time, the person who is waiting can do so much of other thing. Obviously I have made people wait for me too, but at least.... HELLO! If I really have to keep the other person waiting for too long, SMS! CALLS! Or else, don't even bother about reloading or paying the phone bills anymore because we don't even use the facilities to show our manners to our loved one or friends.

As a conclusion, nobody is supposed to think that his/her time worths a million more than the other person.. though I know, some of us out there do make millions within minutes or seconds but please appreciate those who are willing to spend their time to 'wait'.

Option

If I am given the option to die or to face it.. I'll face it - at least for now. Sometimes the world gave us hint that there are so much about life which we haven't discover - yet. So, why choose to 'shorten' my life when I'm given a longer time.

I am not discussing about religions or beliefs on how did we come to this earth. Be it just a simple human on earth, I have plenty to do. It is a matter of whether I have found that things that I wanted to do.

Fine if I have not find it, but I know that before I find it, my current aim will be 'hunting' - hunting for my aim. True.. if I don't have aim, then my current aim will be hunting for aim. That's 'aim' too, or is it not?

When I figure this out, I realise that I have been really stubborn about this.

I have been complaining all the while that I don't know what is my aim. Well, now I know. At least I don't feel lost. I used to feel so 'lost' that I don't even know what do I want to do.. and kept searching for the meaning of my life. Now that I think about it again, I was silly.

Okay, at least I can rest myself assured now that I can forget the silly thought for a while. Raising up problem when problem is not even there to look for me :P

There is a Chinese saying - 自寻烦恼。Looking for problems on behalf of ownself. It's quite true.. human's mind is complicated, or should I say, 'my mind is quite complicated'. Always thinking something unneccesarily when I can actually spend my time to do so much of other things!~

For the time being, gambatte desu!~ ^^

Respect

More often than not, people around me complained that their other half are not as good as the earlier stage of their relationship - which could be either during courtship or the first few weeks to first few months of relationship.

I can't tell if this is true because I have not experience it myself. Anyway, one thing I noticed is.. friends know about 'respect' far better than lovers. Again, this is my personal opinion.

Taking things for granted has been a kind of attitude and it is in trend.

Now, why would some lovers choose to be friends in the end? And why some of them are happier to be friends? Of course there are many answers available. But, I believe 'respect' is one of them.

Although I have never been in love myself, but, I must say that I've made many close friends. Most people do not mind if their friends tend to do something in an 'over' manner. And this is what makes them closer.

To me... no. I emphasis on 'respect'. No matter how close two persons or a group of people can be, respecting each other is important. At most time, it is better not to make assumption, as one never know when will this 'assumption' ruin something.

At this point, acquaintances or 'normal' friends know how to behave better and respecting each other is a kind of manner.

It is understandable that emphasizing too much on manners spoils the mood.. but nobody enjoy to be ill-treated. It is always good to be cautious in term of manners rather than ignoring it. For you won't know when will another person feels offended by what you'd just did or said.

In fact, feeling offended does not necessarily apply to only those who are 'sensitive'. It applies to anyone.. it's just that we won't know what is the bottom line for each individual.

Well, again... this is purely my own opinion. No offence ^^

Left-hander

What is the problem of being a left-hander? I thought it is no longer an issue in today’s world. Whether I like it or not, it is still an issue. Yesterday, my sister was excited to tell us that her five-year-old son is able to write with both hands. She found it out when she visited her son in his kindergarten. The kindergarten teacher had made him writing with his right hand instead or left. My dear nephew is used to his left hand. Hence, my family had categorized him as a left-hander. Everybody will not be bothered at all if he was to use his right hand earlier. Now that my sister figured out that her son is able to use his right hand as well, she couldn’t be happier.

There was another incident which took place a few years ago during Chinese New Year reunion. My uncles and aunties were discussing about left-handers when they figured out that I happen to be one. An aunty (Aunty A) was saying that the elderly used to say that left-handers tend to be smarter. Or course, this is merely a belief. When everybody was agreeing to that belief, suddenly, another aunty (Aunty B) who isn’t a supporter of lefties told us that her daughter was a left-hander. Aunty B explained that she doesn’t want her daughter to be a left-hander. So, Aunty B insisted her daughter to use her right hand once Aunty B found her using left hand doing anything that Aunty B thought is supposed to be done with right hand.

What is the problem of being a lefty?

Well, at least it is better today compared to last time. Now back to myself, I have been a lefty all my life. I can still recall how angry my father was when he saw me using my left hand to scoop rice. I was about three or four then. He scolded me as long as he needed to cool down. Ooh.. one, he was angry because I am a lefty. Two, I scooped the rice and almost a quarter of the rice I scooped fell onto the floor. So, it gave him a good reason to scold me as a lefty.

That was what I can remember. As for another which my mom and sister told me, my father used to hit my left hand when he saw me writing with my left hand. Again, I was only three or four then. As I grew older, he couldn’t be bothered anymore if I am a lefty or righty as long as I do my things right.

Using left hand doesn’t mean we will do things that are against the word RIGHT! Lefties do RIGHT things too. Why pressure our younger generation when they could be a lefty? True, lefties may face problems in using tools that requires right hand to perform better. But, don’t worry, whether it is easy, hard, or super hard, lefties will find their way to make their life easier. The keyword is ‘determination’, not lefty or righty.